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Its day 1 of 2013. Will this be any different than yesterday? That depends on the actions I take today. I struggle with many health problems, I teeter on the edge of self-destruction, can I pull myself back? My life is broken, and I need to find the strength and courage to fix it. My physical, spiritual, and mental states are in shambles from years of addiction and self abuse. Food is my main drug of choice and it is killing me. My body is slowly breaking down due to the food abuse. If I have any hope of seeing tomorrow I need to start taking actions now. I welcome you to follow me on this journey as I struggle to find my way, to silence the demons within me, and find peace and serenity in my life. I can do this IF I am willing to put the work into it. I will share my trials and tribulations, success's and failures. Perhaps I can find a way to save my own life, and if it can help someone else with the same struggles, it would make it all the better This will be a chronicle of my journey to better health, better life, and happiness.

Friday, October 24, 2014

born this way.report.10.24.14

Good morning
My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Overeater and addict, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action


Pray

Snack

Voice exercises/warm up

Outreach/service call

Call Phil

Submit Meal Plan

Submit Report/Action Plan

Breakfast

Read SAA Book

Listen to VO speakers

Practice VO Script

Lunch

Work on Veterans Day Show format outline

Snack

Work on my weekend show format outline

Supper

Self-care

Pray

Bed

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

budapest.report.10.21.14


Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering Compulsive Overeater and addict, I was abstinent yesterday.

Plan of Action

Snack
pray
Outreach/service call
Call Phil
Submit Meal Plan
Submit Report/Action Plan
Breakfast
Read SAA Book
Snack
Listen to VO speakers
Practice VO Script
Lunch
Work on Veterans Day Show format outline
Snack
Work on my weekend show format outline
Supper
Self-care
Pray

Monday, October 20, 2014

peace sells.report.10.20.14




Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering Compulsive Overeater and addict, I was abstinent yesterday.

I am finally starting to feel a hair bit better after 4-5 days of a bad sinus infection. I have an appointment for a CT scan this week, I am hopeful that this will provide some answers either way. I have not been advocating for myself medically. My friend asked me last week where the hell the old Greg was who wasn't afraid to speak up and say what he needed too, he's been missing for a while

I had a decent weekend, yesterday I went with my buddies wife to visit him in rehab. It was good to listen first hand to people in the midst of the struggle and dealing with the fallout from their addictions.

It was tough to hear the pain and suffering, but it reminded me why I am in program, I hope it also helped my buddy to realize that his addiction is going to bring him pain and misery and maybe kill him

I have connected with a fellow OA member and we have a lot in common and our personalities are very much line, I can be rowdy self and talk how I normally talk which isn't appropriate when in meetings or dealing with most people **chuckles** This morning we started an early morning call to do some readings and check in and share, as well as commit anything we need to for the day. I feel pretty positive starting my day off this way.

I have offered before but have been pretty poor on follow up, but if anyone else would like to do this I would be totally open for a quick 5-15 minute call daily or every few days to do readings and check in. It would be a great service to me, and give me a chance to be of service. Drop me an email and lets work out a day/time that’s concrete, I fail when I don't have a concrete plan, its one of my character defects.

Plan of Action

Pray
Self-Care
Snack
Voice exercises/warm up
Outreach/service call
Call Phil
Submit Meal Plan
Submit Report/Action Plan
Breakfast
Read SAA Book
Allergy Shot
Snack
Therapy Appointment
Listen to VO speakers
Practice VO Script
Lunch
Work on Veterans Day Show format outline
Snack
Work on my weekend show format outline
Supper
Self-care
Pray
Bed


Saturday, October 18, 2014

everything changes.report.10.18.14

Good morning

my name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering compulsive over eater and addict, I was abstinent yesterday

Been sick the last few days or so, haven't really been doing much but laying low and sleeping. I have not used this as an excuse to eat.

Plan of Action

Pray
Daily Readings
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
make 2 out reach texts
make 2 out reach calls
attend meeting and be of service


Tuesday, October 14, 2014

fire away.report.10.14.14

Good morning my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday


Plan of Action

snack

Voice Exercises

Work

Breakfast  (before:pray & text Phil-after:give thanks text Phil)

Stretching

snack  (before:pray & text Phil-after:give thanks text Phil)

9:45 meeting, be of service

Work on SAA homework

Make 2 outreach texts

Lunch  (before:pray & text Phil-after:give thanks text Phil)

Listen to VO guys

snack  (before:pray & text Phil-after:give thanks text Phil)

Practice VO Scripts

Make 2 out reach calls

Supper  (before:pray & text Phil-after:give thanks text Phil)

Pray before bed

Self Care

Sleep  (before:pray & text Phil-after:give thanks text Phil)




Monday, October 13, 2014

with or without you.report.10.13.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive OverEater and Addict, I was abstinent yesterday.

I feel a bit better today because I was able to unburden myself with the truth yesterday. I have not been abstinent the last few weeks even though I thought I was.

I was making choices on my own, I took a comment by my sponsor as a license to do things “my” way. We had been talking about a choice I made and he said “you are your own person and you will do your own thing” he was of course talking about self will, but I took it as “you are your own person you can make your own choices” and I ran with it. I lied to myself, and I swallowed that lie hook, line and sinker.

I have been feeling miserable the last few weeks, both mentally and physically. I sent a msg to my provider to get a cat scan done to see if there is something going on in my head that is causing my headaches. When I am in physical pain I struggle badly with program and life in general. I don't want to do meetings, or talk to people or anything else. The pain in my head is so bad and I am in such a s**** mood. Some days I can push through it, other days it feels like not. I have one going on right now and I just want to go home and hide from the world, but I can't do that I have things to do, which really p***** me off, but that's life.

In the grand scheme of things I am alright, I am upright and above ground. I have a home, food, transportation, the essentials to make it through today. I am alright.

I had a good conversation with my sponsor yesterday, I was able to come clean with him and myself, I received and excellent call from a fellow member who told me exactly what I needed to hear. Sharing her ESH was just what I needed when I needed it. She apologized for not calling me back soon, I told her not to worry about it because her call yesterday was a life saver, and I was very grateful.

HP works in mysterious ways, I don't know who or what it is; but I cannot deny the little miracles I see everyday. I cannot believe this is all just chance and coincidence. Something greater is out there.



Plan of Action

Pray

snack  

Daily Readings

Shower

Self-Care

Voice Exercises & Stretching

Work

Breakfast  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)


snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Work on SAA homework

Make 2 outreach texts

Lunch  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Listen to VO guys

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Practice VO Scripts

Make 2 out reach calls

Supper  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Pray before bed

Self Care

Sleep  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)


Friday, October 10, 2014

Sweet Emotion.report.10.10.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering compulsive over eater and addict, I was abstinent yesterday


Plan of Action

Pray

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Daily Readings

Work

Breakfast  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Make 2 outreach texts

Lunch  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Listen to VO guys

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Practice VO Scripts

Make 2 out reach calls

Supper  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Pray before bed

Self Care

Sleep  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)


Thursday, October 9, 2014

when worlds collide.report.10.9.14

Good morning
my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE and Addict, I was abstinent yesterday


Plan of Action

Pray

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Daily Readings

Shower

Self-Care

Voice Exercises & Stretching

Work

Breakfast  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

9:45 meeting

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Work on SAA homework

Make 2 outreach texts

12:00 SAA meeting

Lunch  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Listen to VO guys

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Practice VO Scripts

Make 2 out reach calls

Supper  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Pray before bed

Self Care

Sleep  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)



Wednesday, October 8, 2014

so far away.report.10.8.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater, I was not abstinent yesterday.

I made the “choice” on my own to have some XXX.  I did not pray or consult my sponsor on it.  I was just “in the mood to have XXX” and I had it.  Although this didn't end up as a binge or bad incident its not behavior I can indulge in.  Too much of this will lead me down the road to having some serious trigger foods.

Plan of Action

Pray

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Daily Readings

Shower

Self-Care

Voice Exercises & Stretching

Work

Breakfast  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

9:45 meeting

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Work on SAA homework

Make 2 outreach texts

12:00 SAA meeting

Lunch  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Listen to VO guys

snack  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Practice VO Scripts

Make 2 out reach calls

Supper  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Pray before bed

Self Care

Sleep  (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)

Monday, October 6, 2014

all about that bass.report.10.6.14

Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over eater and Addict, I was abstinent yesterday

Not really much to say today, kind of in a funk. I am grateful for the meeting I had yesterday via Skype. It was simple and we just did some readings, I didn't feel like I had much to contribute but I was very grateful for the ESH the other person shared with me.

I look forward to doing more little impromptu meetings during the week

Plan of Action

Pray
daily readings
snack
submit meal plan
call phil
breakfast
pray before/after meal
text phil before/after meal
get allergy shot
therapy appointment
practice my vo scripts
make 2 outreach calls
make 2 outreach texts
attend 9:45 meeting, be of service
Listen to VO sites coach gave me
start crafting the plan for my future



Friday, October 3, 2014

when i see you smile.report.10.3.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater and addict I was abstinent yesterday.

Not much to say the usual is going on, I start to feel like I am whining by saying whats going on physically with me, but it happens and affects most aspects of daily life. I am grateful that I am able to get around and function, I know there are others who would be grateful to have my mobility and do the things I can do.


Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Breakfast
Daily Readings from OA Books
Read 2 pages in BB
Listen to VO homework
Practice VO Scripts

Work on my Google calendar  

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

whiplash.report.10.1.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering compulsive over eater and addict, I was abstinent yesterday.

Its a new day, one foot in front of the other

Plan of Action

Pray
Daily Readings
Self-Care
Snack
Work
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
breakfast
9:45 phone meeting
12:00 meeting
Prep meeting materials for new meeting
Listen to VO stuff
Read a section in my VO book, email the author

Do some research and put together a plan to build a VO career