I fought the law.7.31.13

**Food Mentioned**

Good morning

Still not feeling well, been very depressed and borderline suicidal the last few days.  I don’t think I was abstinent yesterday.  I ate pizza sometime in the last few days, I don’t know if it was yesterday or the day before, all my days have kind of blended into one.  I know that I did it and I know that I didn’t report it to my food sponsor, I am unsure as to why on both.  I had no reason to pick up, I know it happened at work, I went into the fridge when I got there and there was a box in there, I took I out and ate 2 slices of pizza and a bread stick.  I have sat here for a while trying to figure it out but it’s all such a jumbled mess I am not sure.  I can say there was no good reason for it and I am sure like all the other times it was not pleasurable at all.

I am going to discuss with my food sponsor adding a 3^rd snack to my day.  Some fruit when I get up and go to work.  I get up anywhere between 3-4 and I don’t eat till 8 so a considerable amount of time has gone by since I last ate, I know in my the morning sometimes hunger triggers me.

Goals for the day

Pray

Submit meal plan (done)

Stick to meal plan as written

Pray before/after my meals

Text my food sponsor before/after my meals

Be of service where I can

Pray

Do something for my recovery every hour.

pray

Bouncing around the room.7.29.13

Good morning
I hope this finds you well.

I was abstinent yesterday.  I texted my food sponsor before and after all my meals.  I did not have supper as my day started late and lunch time was around 4pm and I was in bed a few hours later.

I didn't have a very good day being of service to my mom like I had intended.  I really was not feeling well and on edge and testy the whole day.  I was short with her a few times, but I did apologize to her and let her know I just wasn't feeling well.

Goals for today

pray
submit meal plan (done)
pray before/after my meals
text my food sponsor before/after my meals
pray
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray

Burn it to the ground.report.7.28.13

Good afternoon
I hope your weekend is going well :)

yesterday wasn't a bad day for me.  I didn't feel well most of the day.  was pretty much on the run most of the day which didn't help but I got it done.  I didn’t get very much done recovery wise so I will focus on getting back to that today.

I was abstinent yesterday, I did have a small blip last night, I was at my nephews birthday party and I had a taste of frosting on my finger.  I did not eat any cake or ice cream.  I know I can't just taste things on a whim, but I don't feel like it broke my abstinence.  Had I eaten cake or ice cream most definitely because I did not plan them.


Goals for the day

pray
submit meal plan (done)
stick to my meal plan as written
pray before and after my meal
text my food sponsor before and after my meal
pray
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray

The.Game.7.26.13

Good morning

I am not going to say I was abstinent yesterday.  I had more meat than I intended with supper so I am just going to say it wasn't an abstinent day.  the rest of the day was fine, texted my food sponsor before and after all my meals

Worked on being more helpful and patient with my mom, did my best to make her day better regardless of how I felt

I also need to finish setting up this blog.  A description of what I am doing would probably be nice

*chuckles* 

Goals for today

pray

submit meal plan (done)

stick to meal plan was written

pray before and after my meals

text my food sponsor before and after my meals

pray

be of service where I can

help to make my mom’s day better

pray

do something for my recovery every hour

research voice training techniques and news casting

pray

wanted dead or alive.7.24.13

Good morning

I hope this finds you well and that yesterday was good for you.

I was abstinent yesterday.  Had some good conversations with my food sponsor via text over my report yesterday morning.  He pointed out I need to be very wary of the chips I have been eating, I don't remember how many times he said I reported having them, but it was a lot.  I was very surprised.  I think it was 8 or more.  He also suggested my behavior is heading me towards a relapse and I do not want that.

My goals for today

pray

submit meal plan (done)

pray before/after my meals

text food sponsor before/after my meals ( did this for all 3 meals yesterday)

pray

be of service where I can

do something for my recovery every hour

work on my vocal work

be more attentive to my work and researching voice over work

pray

with.arms.wide.open.7.23.13

Good morning, hope all are well.

I am doing alright this morning.  Dealing with my usual pain but I am in a good frame of mind.  I started my day off right with some prayer and meditation.

I am getting ready to put my meal plan together and send that to my food sponsor.  Aside from that not much else going on.  I just need to take the right steps today to make sure my day is well.  I hope you all have a peaceful day

Wasting.Time.7.22.13

Good morning

was abstinent yesterday.  Don't have much to say again this morning

still not feeling well

my goals

pray

submit meal plan (done)

follow meal plan as written

pray before/after meals

text phil before/after meals

be of service

do something for my recovery every hour today if possible

Crazy.Train.7.21.13

To say I am in a bad mood today would be a gross understatement.  I am not really interested in any sort of interaction with the rest of my fellow humans.

I mucked yesterday up.  I ate some chips which obviously aren't on my meal plan.  I also ate when I got home late last night.  I was not not feeling good physically and just took it upon myself to eat.  I should have checked with Phil and let him know, but I didnt.

Despite feeling like an Ogre today I did start my day off positive.

*I got up and prayed, meditated and worked on my vocal training

*I submitted my meal plan

*I did my gratitude and words of encouragement

*I wrote here on my blog

Ill work on making the best of the day regardless of how I feel.

count on me.7.17.13

Good morning 

Yesterday went well.  I was abstinent.  I contact Phil before and after 3 meals, snacks were ok

Today I am going to a rock concert.  I did my meal plan and I am set.  If anything arises I will contact Phil.  I do not know if my phone will work at the concert venue.  My meals should all happen before or after so that should not be an issue.  I will not eat any food sold at the venue unless an emergency arises, I do not see that happening.  I will take snacks and water with me, there is no reason to eat anything aside from them. 

Goals for the day

Pray

Submit meal plan (done)

Pray before and after my meals

Text Phil before and after my meals

Pray

Be of service where I can

Do something for my recovery every hour


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Ghost of Days gone by.7.16.13

Good morning

I was abstinent yesterday.  I followed my meal plan and I contacted Phil before and after all 3 of my meals.

I asked Phil’s guidance on a rock concert I am going to on WED and he shared with me what he did in similar situations and it was very helpful.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day.  I’ll get up about 4 am, go to work.  Go home and get packed to leave about noon.  If I am lucky I'll get a short nap in the afternoon and head over to the concert venue about 6.  We will be in there for 6-8 hours.  It’s going to be a bit challenging but I feel it’s doable.  I will take my own snacks into the venue.  Being diabetic and needing meds and other things I am allowed to take a bag in with me, normally those are forbidden so I feel grateful at that.

I will have 4 meals and 2 snacks tomorrow instead of my customary 3/2.  This is due to the length of my day.  I’ll be up about 20 hours or so.  All meals/snacks will be planned out unless something totally unforeseen comes up, I do not anticipate anything like that.

Goals for the day

*Pray

*submit meal plan (done)

*pray before and after my meals

*text Phil before and after my meals

*pray

*be of service where I can

*do something for my recovery every hour; I will use the alarm/calendar on my phone to help me with this.

*pray