Good morning
my name is Greg I am a grateful
recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday
It was an interesting day yesterday, I
got my car back to the tune of $320 which kinda bummed me out
initially, it seems like there is always something to spend money on
I cannot get ahead.
Then I realized I am grateful the
garage fixed it, I am grateful they let me take the car with no money
and they allow me to make payments. If it was not for them I would
be sunk so I didn't dwell on it long and I was very grateful.
My day kind of took a dark turn in the
afternoon. A friend of mine who I kind of knew over the years, he
worked at a local grocery store I frequent, we would talk and shoot
the breeze anytime we saw each other. I liked him he was a soft
spoken really nice guy. One day he was just gone from the store and
I did not see him for a while. We later connected through facebook
and then started hanging out. He is a lot younger than I am but we
come from similar background filled with abuse, he battles his own
addictions as well. I like him, his wife and kids are all great. I
spend as much time with him as possible, its a good sober environment
for me to hang out in. He is not in program but I do talk to him
about stuff from time to time, I try not to push it on him, last
night he slipped up and threw away 4 months of sobriety. He called
me on the phone and told me he was drinking and driving around, I
told him to get home and I would be right there. When I got to his
house he was not there, to make a long story short he had an accident
and went off the road. When I found him he was in the woods, the
police and ambulance were already on the way, he was just slumped
over in his car. They got him out and to the hospital and thankfully
he was not hurt. It was very sobering to me to see the consqeuences
of indulging addiction, granted mine are a bit different and the
consequences are not always so sudden and in your face, but it shook
me up the none the less. I sat with the family and watches all the
pain they were going through, it was hard to watch but I was there to
do my best to support them which I did. This was a wake up call for
me, and it let me know I need to start taking care of my own business
before I have my own “accident” I don't want to have a heart
attack, or lose any toes or my feet due to diabetes. So far both of
those things have been good and under control, however getting back
into the food will lead me down a dark and deadly path that I might
not recover from
Plan of Action
Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Do a phone meeting today
Read 2 pages from BB and 12/12
Get with my sponsor about continuing
step work
Read a chapter in my VO book
Check out news site
