Good morning
My name is Greg I am a grateful
recovering Compulsive OverEater and Addict, I was abstinent
yesterday.
I feel a bit better today because I was
able to unburden myself with the truth yesterday. I have not been
abstinent the last few weeks even though I thought I was.
I was making choices on my own, I took
a comment by my sponsor as a license to do things “my” way. We
had been talking about a choice I made and he said “you are your
own person and you will do your own thing” he was of course
talking about self will, but I took it as “you are your own person
you can make your own choices” and I ran with it. I lied to
myself, and I swallowed that lie hook, line and sinker.
I have been feeling miserable the last
few weeks, both mentally and physically. I sent a msg to my provider
to get a cat scan done to see if there is something going on in my
head that is causing my headaches. When I am in physical pain I
struggle badly with program and life in general. I don't want to do
meetings, or talk to people or anything else. The pain in my head is
so bad and I am in such a s**** mood. Some days I can push through
it, other days it feels like not. I have one going on right now and
I just want to go home and hide from the world, but I can't do that I
have things to do, which really p***** me off, but that's life.
In the grand scheme of things I am
alright, I am upright and above ground. I have a home, food,
transportation, the essentials to make it through today. I am
alright.
I had a good conversation with my
sponsor yesterday, I was able to come clean with him and myself, I
received and excellent call from a fellow member who told me exactly
what I needed to hear. Sharing her ESH was just what I needed when I
needed it. She apologized for not calling me back soon, I told her
not to worry about it because her call yesterday was a life saver,
and I was very grateful.
HP works in mysterious ways, I don't
know who or what it is; but I cannot deny the little miracles I see
everyday. I cannot believe this is all just chance and coincidence.
Something greater is out there.
Plan of Action Pray snack Daily Readings Shower Self-Care Voice Exercises & Stretching Work Breakfast (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil) snack (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil) Work on SAA homework Make 2 outreach texts Lunch (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil) Listen to VO guys snack (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil) Practice VO Scripts Make 2 out reach calls Supper (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil) Pray before bed Self Care Sleep (before:pray & text Phil—after:give thanks text Phil)
