blue on black.report.8.29.14

Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

For the first day in a while I was 100% sober across the board, it was challenging especially at the end of the day but it felt good to fall asleep whole instead of fractured.

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit meal plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Attend 9:45 meeting, be of service
Read OA Daily Readers
Read 2 pages in BB
Read 2 pages in 12/12 to continue step work
Listen to past news cast
Read VO Blog
Listen to professional news casters
Prep radio show for the weekend
Read Chapter in VO book

I was wrong.report.8.28.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering COE and I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 4 outreach calls
Make 4 outreach texts
Start next chapter of 12/12 for step work
Read Daily Readers
Read Chapter in VO Book
Listen to session
Listen to news from 7/19
Listen to wbz news casters
practice script

one thing.report.8.27.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering COE and I was abstinent yesterday

Not a bad day in all, I am still not feeling well and I am getting sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am taking my meds as I am supposed too. I am trying to stay as hydrated as I can, get as much sleep as I can, and take other actions to help keep myself physically healthy. Yet certain health issues still plague me, and I do not believe they are weight related.

I am growing tired of calling my DR, well Nurse Practitioner only to be told to go to the clinic. Its the same crap over and over again, either they say to go home and tough it out, or they give me antibiotics and send me on my way. The symptoms seem to get worse with each episode and I am not happy with the care I am getting. I am just unsure what action to take, what tests do I ask for? What can I do to find a solution? If the people I depend on for care aren't taking it seriously or don't have any answers it leaves me in a difficult situation. I realize I live in a small town, I realize they are busy but got dammit its my life and health we are dealing with. I will pray to my HP and see if any answers some while I try to figure out what to do.

Plan of Action

Pray

Submit Meal Plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 4 outreach calls

Make 4 outreach texts

Start next chapter of 12/12 for step work

Read Daily Readers

Read Chapter in VO Book

Listen to session

Listen to news from 7/19

Listen to wbz news casters

practice script

money talks.report.8.25.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday however my behavior was slippery.

A taste of something here, and extra little something there. I pushed the boundaries of abstinence without breaking them and I realize I cannot continue to do this or I will binge/slip again.

I am doing step work with a sponsor today, this will help me move forward. I also need to do the work in another program that my addiction is running wild in.

I now see the connection between all my addictions. If 3 of them are under control so to speak, and one of them is running rampant then I am blindly treading on thin ice. Well not blindly anymore, not I realize that if one thing is out of order they are all out of order. I cannot be at peace physically, mentally, and spiritually if one of my demons is tormenting me. In the past the why has eluded me, I could not figure out why I was so miserable because 3 of my addictions were quiet, I guess I did not give the 4^th one the respect it deserve, I under estimated it.

Today I will work to bring peace and harmony to my life working the program, using the tools and doing my action plan

POA:

Pray

Submit Meal Plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make at least 2 outreach calls

Make at least 2 outreach text's

Do BB study with sponsor

Read daily readers

Listen & study news cast that coach said was good

Read over scripts and practice

Edit lesson to be used for practice

listen to 2 news casts of Boston website

Read VO book

Do meditation

Look over and do breath/ VO exercises

Southern Cross.report.8.23.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

I am starting to come out of my funk I was in after my slip a few days ago. I kept coming back despite my actions, my heart really wasn't in it initially. That did lead me to a little slippery behavior in the days following, but today I feel good. I started my day with prayer and I am ready to face whatever is ahead of me.

Plan of Action

Pray

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Make 2 outreach texts

Read OA daily readers

Read 2 pages in BB

Read Chapter in VO book

Listen to WBZ newscasters

still counting.report.8.22.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

submit meal plan
call phil
pray before/after meals
text phil before/after meals
make 2 outreach calls
make 2 outreach texts
read daily readers
read 2 pages in BB and make up pages
read chapter in VO book
listen to boston news casters
practice scripts
attend meeting or listen to one

mental health.report.8.21.14

Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday.

I have to admit I don't feel very grateful today, not that I don't appreciate what I have; I am just still struggling, white knuckling it.

I have not felt this way for a good long time now, that feeling of faithless, hopeless action. I did not enjoy this stage when I went through it the first time, I sure as hell don't like it now. I guess its a good refresher that no matter how much time you have long or short some things never disappear fully and may come back to haunt at some point.

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Read Daily Readers

Read 2 pages in BB

Make 2 outreach calls

Make 2 outreach texts

Be of service

Read VO Scripts

Practice VO Scripts

Read Chapter in VO book

Listen to News station

PS: the irony of Quiet Riots Mental Health playing as I write this is not lost on me *chuckles*