I just died in you arms tonight.report.9.5.13

Good morning

I hope you had a good day yesterday.  

I was not abstinent yesterday due to having a coke.  I have been distancing myself from sugar, caffeine and starting to get away from white flour.  

I was having some serious withdrawal symptoms yesterday and it got to the point I could not stand it anymore, no amount of prayer or reaching out was going to help with the blinding, splitting headache that I had.  I realize that soda and sugar is not healthy for me, I just don't deal well with intense immediate pain.  About 5 minutes after I had it I felt 100x better.  The headache went away, I wasn't feeling as tired, or angry and down.  I realize I cannot use this as a crutch all the time, I just wasn't prepared for it; and it was unbearable.  Aside from that my day was good.  I will continue to work on separating myself from sugar.  I will use something like orange juice or apple juice in the future.  I have some sometimes with breakfast to take an iron pill the DR gave me, he suggest OJ as it would help it absorb into my system better.

I have bought myself some green tea; I bought a flavor that seems palatable to me.  I have to check it for sugar and make sure it doesn't contain any or that darn high fructose corn syrup which seems to be in everything these days.

I use a wraps with my meals, I am going to investigate making my own to see if I can avoid sugar in that.  They have something called Manna Bread which I have looked into a little bit, it’s not a wrap but I might try it to see how it tastes.  At this point I am not ready to start eating foods that are not at least palatable to me.  Maybe at some point i can just eat strictly healthy foods regardless of how they taste but that time is not now. 

I have tried doing that in the past and it just builds resentment in me, I cannot have food that tastes rich and is high in fat and sugar because it triggers me, however I feel that I need to at least enjoy the food I am eating as long as it doesn't trigger binges in me.

Goals for the day:

Pray & meditate
submit meal plan (done)
Pray before my meals and give thanks after
Text my food sponsor before and after my meals
pray
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray

Don't Trust a Chicken Nugget That's Visited China

I am glad I don't eat this stuff. This article goes good with a follow up one I am posting

http://finance.yahoo.com/news/dont-trust-chicken-nugget-thats-160339774.html

Fake Food

Good grief this list is both shocking, disgusting and infuriating all mixed into one.  I need to stop being so lazy and become the food detective I told myself I would be.  Some of the stuff on the list is a no brainer. Basically the way I feel now is I cannot trust food companies.  They are going to cut corners and don't give a s*** about me or my health, on the bottom line.  I wish I could grow my own stuff.  Hmm hydroponics is actually supposed to be used to grow read food isn't it ;)

health.yahoo.net/articles/nutrition/photos/fake-foods-you-are-eating#0

Only God knows why.report.9.4.13

good morning

yesterday was ok,Didn't feel well at all.  Was a little grumpy with mom but I apologized.
My day food wise was ok, I did some picking while I was prepping some food, aside from that my day was good

goals for the day

pray & meditate (done)
submit meal plan (done)
pray before and after my meals
text my food sponsor before and after my meals
pray
be of service where I can
listen to a speaker file
chair meeting
do something for my recovery every hour

Shoot to thrill.report.9.3.13

Good morning  I hope this finds you well

I was not abstinent yesterday,I had a small slip.   I was out to eat and had a serving of a dessert.  I didn't eat it right then I had it later on.   It was not planned for and I did not check in with anyone.  It sounded good and I wanted it so I got it, that was the reasoning behind it.

I didn't really pray before I ate either, it  was some half-a**ed after thought The rest of the day I did well.

Goals for the day

Pray & meditate
submit meal plan (done)
pray before and after my meals
text my food sponsor before and after meals
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray and meditate

Fool in the rain.report.9.2.13

Good morning

had a good abstinent day yesterday.  Not much to report it was a quiet day.  Went for a nice long ride in the country.  I found the place I want to live.  Its down a nice quiet country road, you crest the top of a hill and the view is of the entire valley, you can see for miles, its beautiful with mountains in the back ground.  There is already a large home built there, a person who lives in the neighborhood stopped to talk about a few things and called it the "million dollar mansion on the hill"  I guess Wynonna Judd tried to buy it a few years ago.  Its a shame it costs so much to live like that in Northern Maine, but the view is worth it.  I guess I need to buckle down and get busy on my entertainment career *chuckles*


Goals for today

pray & meditate
submit meal plan (done)
pray before/after meals
text my food sponsor before/after meals
pray
be of service
do something for my recovery every hour
pray & meditate

Strawberry Swinging.report.9.1.13

Guess the band in my blog title win a goodie :)

Yesterdays Winner was EDWARDS1411 who guess it was Chesney Hawkes: The one and only. Made popular by the movie Doc Hollywood

www.youtube.com/watch?v=
z8f2mW1GFSI


Good afternoon, Happy Sept 1st 

I was abstinent yesterday, no soda :)

I credit my success by starting off my day with prayer and meditation, also being in contact with my sponsors and praying through the day.

I started off my day today the same with prayer and meditation. I expect if I keep doing what I did yesterday I will be abstinent again today

goals for the day

pray and meditate
submit meal plan (done)
pray before/after my meals
text phil before/after my meals
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray and meditate