Good morning
I hope you had a good day yesterday.
I was not abstinent yesterday due to having a coke. I have been distancing myself from sugar, caffeine
and starting to get away from white flour.
I was having some serious withdrawal symptoms yesterday and
it got to the point I could not stand it anymore, no amount of prayer or
reaching out was going to help with the blinding, splitting headache that I
had. I realize that soda and sugar is
not healthy for me, I just don't deal well with intense immediate pain. About 5 minutes after I had it I felt 100x
better. The headache went away, I wasn't
feeling as tired, or angry and down. I
realize I cannot use this as a crutch all the time, I just wasn't prepared for
it; and it was unbearable. Aside from
that my day was good. I will continue to
work on separating myself from sugar. I
will use something like orange juice or apple juice in the future. I have some sometimes with breakfast to take
an iron pill the DR gave me, he suggest OJ as it would help it absorb into my
system better.
I have bought myself some green tea; I bought a flavor that
seems palatable to me. I have to check
it for sugar and make sure it doesn't contain any or that darn high fructose
corn syrup which seems to be in everything these days.
I use a wraps with my meals, I am going to investigate
making my own to see if I can avoid sugar in that. They have something called Manna Bread which I
have looked into a little bit, it’s not a wrap but I might try it to see how it
tastes. At this point I am not ready to
start eating foods that are not at least palatable to me. Maybe at some point i can just eat strictly
healthy foods regardless of how they taste but that time is not now.
I have tried doing that in the past and it just builds
resentment in me, I cannot have food that tastes rich and is high in fat and
sugar because it triggers me, however I feel that I need to at least enjoy the
food I am eating as long as it doesn't trigger binges in me.
Goals for the day:
Pray & meditate
submit meal plan (done)
Pray before my meals and give thanks after
Text my food sponsor before and after my meals
pray
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray
submit meal plan (done)
Pray before my meals and give thanks after
Text my food sponsor before and after my meals
pray
be of service where I can
do something for my recovery every hour
pray
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