Good morning
I hope your weekend was well, mine was decent enough. I did good food wise yesterday all was well and I was abstinent, that is 20 days out of the last 22 abstinent.
I made a little headway on cleaning up my area upstairs. That’s a project I have been working on for a long time now. I work pretty slowly at times, but I am doing a little each day, I would like to be one of those people who tackle a project and don't stop till it’s done. At this point in life that’s not my style so I will continue to work away at it. It feels good to have things start taking shape and the area to look neater and cleaner.
I worked on letting go of resentments over the weekend, that’s going to be a work in progress but I at least open to working on it. I have one I didn't think I would let go of because I don't feel like I am doing anything wrong, however after some contemplation it’s not going to serve me to hold onto it. I really wish I liked camping because I would move to a cabin in the woods and not have to deal with people *chuckles* but that’s not really a good life coping strategy, still it sounds good sometimes.
Ah Monday again, the days and weeks seem to just drift by. I am going to work a little harder on my recovery and other life goals today. My life really doesn't have much meaning at this point. I am not saying that I am useless or that life isn't good. But I don't have much substance in my life. The weeks just fade in and out, time slips through my fingers and I feel like I don't have much to show for it. My biggest fear is to wake up and be 50 and in the same spot I am in now, that terrifies the crap out of me. That will be a reality unless I do something to change it; I will look at how I can work on that today
Goals for today
mediate & pray (done)
submit meal plan (done)
pray before my meals and give thanks after
text my food sponsor before and after my meals
be of service where I can
take recovery actions
listen to a positive recording today either a recovery speaker or something on meditation and mindfulness
work on my life goals
work on my area upstairs
meditate & pray before bed
About Me
- Greg
- Its day 1 of 2013. Will this be any different than yesterday? That depends on the actions I take today. I struggle with many health problems, I teeter on the edge of self-destruction, can I pull myself back? My life is broken, and I need to find the strength and courage to fix it. My physical, spiritual, and mental states are in shambles from years of addiction and self abuse. Food is my main drug of choice and it is killing me. My body is slowly breaking down due to the food abuse. If I have any hope of seeing tomorrow I need to start taking actions now. I welcome you to follow me on this journey as I struggle to find my way, to silence the demons within me, and find peace and serenity in my life. I can do this IF I am willing to put the work into it. I will share my trials and tribulations, success's and failures. Perhaps I can find a way to save my own life, and if it can help someone else with the same struggles, it would make it all the better This will be a chronicle of my journey to better health, better life, and happiness.
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