Good morning
I hope this finds you well.
I was abstinent yesterday that makes 7 days of the last 8
My day was decent enough yesterday. Mom got home last night from her vacation,
which was positive and negative. She
wasn't even home 1/2 an hour and the complaining started. It kind of threw the whole house off. Normally when mom comes home the animal’s
transition back into being with her, but because of the negative attitude in
the house they followed me upstairs when I removed myself from the
situation. I am of course please to see
her, but I was disappointed that things resort to business as usual so soon
after her coming home. Rather than get angry about it I simply went upstairs
and took myself out of the room.
I feel badly because she very much wants people to talk to
through the course of her day, but I find myself feeling short with her, resentful
and not really interested in what she has to say. I know that sounds horrible but I am a
solitary person. I am content to be
quiet and by myself most of the day. I
go to work or meetings and interact with people in a healthy way, the rest of
the time I like my peace, I don't really say much and I keep to myself. She on the other hand talks all day long,
asks questions, complains ETC. I don't
deal well with the complaining, I do feel bad that I get automatically short
with her as soon as she speaks to me and it’s something I am working on. However I don't feel I should have to sit
there and listen to her complain about the world on a daily basis, or do I? I
cannot decide if its being of service to sit and listen to her talk and answer
every question she throws at me, or if I am serving my own mental health by
simply staying upstairs in my own area
Goals for the day
Pray & meditate (done)
Submit meal plan (done)
Pray before and after my meals
Text my food sponsor before and after my meals
Be of service
Take recovery actions through the day
Pray & meditate before bed.
Work on cleaning up my area upstairs to build a peaceful and
quiet place for myself.
Work on researching and educating myself on my job and
future goals.
Put together a daily book of information, quotes, and other
things I have been compiling so that I can read it daily and use the information
I will listen to a new speaker file today
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