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Its day 1 of 2013. Will this be any different than yesterday? That depends on the actions I take today. I struggle with many health problems, I teeter on the edge of self-destruction, can I pull myself back? My life is broken, and I need to find the strength and courage to fix it. My physical, spiritual, and mental states are in shambles from years of addiction and self abuse. Food is my main drug of choice and it is killing me. My body is slowly breaking down due to the food abuse. If I have any hope of seeing tomorrow I need to start taking actions now. I welcome you to follow me on this journey as I struggle to find my way, to silence the demons within me, and find peace and serenity in my life. I can do this IF I am willing to put the work into it. I will share my trials and tribulations, success's and failures. Perhaps I can find a way to save my own life, and if it can help someone else with the same struggles, it would make it all the better This will be a chronicle of my journey to better health, better life, and happiness.

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

I remember you.report.12.31.14

** FOOD MENTIONED**

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater and Food Addict, I was abstinent yesterday

my stir fry/spices experiment was good, I put in the usual veggies that I like to eat and added some summer squash into it. I didn't even really taste it. Often times I can eat things in a stir fry or raw that I will not eat if you cook them. I am interested in finding more veggies I can add to my meals, its tough because I live in a small town and the things we can get are limited but I will do the best I can


Plan of Action

Pray
pray and have snack
work
call Phil
submit meal plan
submit report
mini-meeting
pray and have snack
pray, text Phil and have breakfast
945 meeting be of service
12:00 Self-Care
pray, text Phil and have lunch
make out reach calls
pray and have snack
read my book
read my VO book
listen to VO file
make out reach texts
respond to emails

pray, text Phil and have supper

Monday, December 29, 2014

18 and life.report.12.29.14

**FOOD MENTIONED**

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Overeater, I was abstinent yesterday

I had a decent day yesterday, was able to catch a phone meeting and make some outreach calls.

I don't know if I mentioned it or not but my brother made me up some bags of spices for a holiday gift. I was mentioned I wanted to branch out and each more veggies and was trying to find some sort of sauce for them that was not high in sugar. He suggested cooking the veggies then adding a small amount of water and spices. He then went to work blending together some things he uses in his cooking (he's a chef at a local hospital) they smelled really good plus no sugar ;)

I am going to give those a shot today and stir fry up some veggies with chicken and rice and see how they work. I am also going to dig my juice out from wherever its hiding and get that back into action. When I was using it before I was able to add some veggies I would not normally eat into it, and blended with fresh apples or oranges I did not taste them (much) I'm starting out with baby steps but I need to add more fruits/veggies into my arsenal and work on easing back on the bread, flour and sugar. Its a scary step and I will do it small moves at a time but I am moving

Plan of Action

Pray
read literature
pray and have snack
self-care
work
call Phil
submit meal plan
submit report
work
voice warm up/stretching
pray, text Phil and have breakfast
self-care
945 meeting
pray and have snack
make outreach calls
read my VO book
practice my VO scripts
watch a video on VO
make outreach texts
pray, text Phil and have lunch
pray, text Phil and have supper
self-care
pray
bed


Friday, December 26, 2014

run.report.12.26.14

Good Morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Overeater I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Pray and have snack
Readings
Self-care
Work
Call Phil
Submit meal plan
Pray, text Phil and have breakfast
Mini-meeting
945 meeting
Pray and have snack
Make 2 outreach calls
pray, text Phil and have lunch
Work on VO script
Watch VO blog
pray, text Phil and have supper
self-care
pray
bed

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

those Christmas lights.report.12.24.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Overeater, I was abstinent yesterday

Boy it was sure tough yesterday, I was surrounded on all sides by "holiday food" It really makes me want to hole up in my own cocoon and stay away from everything.  I know I cannot do that but it would certainly e easier.

Plan of Action

Pray
Pray and have snack
Readings
Self-care
Work
Call Phil
Submit meal plan
Pray, text Phil and have breakfast
Mini-meeting
945 meeting
Pray and have snack
Make 2 outreach calls
pray, text Phil and have lunch
Work on VO script
Watch VO blog
pray, text Phil and have supper
self-care
pray
bed

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

fake it.report.12.23.14

Good morning

my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Overeater, I was sloppy yesterday but abstinent

Monday was not a good day, it seemed like everything that could go wrong did go wrong. I was angry from the time I woke up until I went to bed. Everything and everyone annoyed me from the pets, to my mom, to the people on the meeting to people in general. I sucked it up and got through the day

I am looking at changing my meal plan a bit, which is a scary concept. I am used to doing what I have been doing for so long but it needs to be done.

I am focusing on getting more fruits and vegetables into my mp. Its tough because I don't like a lot of vegetables and I simply won't eat something I don't like. I was forced to eat food as a child and I am not reliving that every time it comes to meal time. My vegetable table might be small but I will find a way to make it work. I plan on figuring out how to incorporate more into it, I will even venture into eating things I am not familiar with or that I don't like at this time but I won't force myself, I've had enough of that in my lifetime.

My search for step sponsor continues, I will make some calls today to make some connections.

I picked up a book that's been on my shelf for years now called “if life is a game these are the rules” its been good so far. The firs chapter is on accepting myself and my body for who and what I am. Very interesting and a lot of good information that is helpful


Plan of Action

Pray
Pray and have snack
Readings
Self-care
Work
Call Phil
Submit meal plan
Pray, text Phil and have breakfast
Mini-meeting
945 meeting
Pray and have snack
Make 2 outreach calls
pray, text Phil and have lunch
Work on VO script
Watch VO blog
pray, text Phil and have supper
self-care
pray
bed


Monday, December 22, 2014

Street Spirit.report.12.22.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater I was a little too heavy handed when dishing out my lunch.  I did not have a set amount I was going to have but I know that I had more than a normal portion.  I need to stop and pray for help in those situations


Plan of Action

pray
pray  and have snack
work
call Phil
send in my report & meal plan
pray and text Phil then have breakfast
mini-meeting
self-care
make 2 outreach calls
pray and have snack
self-care
pray and text Phil then have lunch
call potential sponsors
Read a chapter in my VO book
Listen to a VO blog
Practice my Script
pray and text Phil then have supper
self-care
pray
bed


Friday, December 19, 2014

little saint nick.report.12.19.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful, recovering Compulsive Over Eater. I was abstinent yesterday

Things have been quiet the last few days good wise, I am still processing what was a rather surprising life event for me concerning someone I had in my life for a long time. I am happy that I am not angry about it it, I do feel betrayed but not angry. That person brought so much good into my life that it pretty much balances out the lies and deception. Still its hard to wrap my head around certain details, they will pop in my head from time to time and its like algebra I cannot wrap my head around it

I am not eating over it, that really is of little comfort at this point but its all I have


Plan of Action

pray
snack
work
call my sponsor
send meal plan
send report
mini-meeting
readings
945 meeting
snack
2 out reach calls
lunch
1200 meeting
out reach texts
snack
supper
self-care
prayer
bed