Good morning
My name is Greg I am a grateful
recovering Compulsive Overeater, I was abstinent yesterday.
Yesterday was decent enough, I could
have gotten a little bit more accomplished but its too late for that
now, I can only work today to get what I need to done. I did sign up
to be a backup moderator yesterday for phone meetings. I have been
dragging my feet about doing it but someone inspired me to push
through it and do it anyways.
The drama at work is finally coming to
a head after two long years. We have someone there who is just the
meanest, spiteful, hateful person. He has been the cause of much
resentment in my two years working there. I feel kind of bad with
what I am about to say, but then again I don't feel bad. His
behavior finally reached the point where his job is in serious
jeopardy, he has crossed the line so many time, but this time he
hopped over too far to come back. The only reason he is still there
today is we need him for the upcoming sports broadcast season.
I cannot help but think: haha sucker
you brought it on yourself!!! And then my HP brought me back down to
earth by having another awesome program person remind me that he must
be in an incredible amount of pain to be as miserable as he is. I
have to say I was extremely resentful at having to admit the truth in
that. Have I not been that miserable in the past? Have I not done
and said things hateful to other people? Have I not done things that
are just despicable? I sure as hell have, so why is it so hard for
me to forgive and love this person? I printed out “Love and
Tolerance of others is our code” and I put it in my prayer book so
I can read that everyday, yet I am struggling badly with this
situation. I want to feel bad and pray for him, yet I feel joyful
that soon our work environment is going to be SO much better with him
gone. It was pointed out to me that his whole world will come down
around his feet when this happens. Actually now I am ashamed that I
feel gleeful about this. All I can do is pray for him, and pray that
I find compassion in myself for this person.
Plan of Action
Pray
snack
self-care
read literature
Submit Meal Plan
mini-meeting
Call Phil
work
pray, text Phil and have breakfast
945 meeting
pray, text Phil and have snack
make 2 outreach calls
1200 meeting
lunch
make 2 out reach texts
make 2 out reach emails
pray, text Phil and have snack
practice my VO scripts
listen to VO blog
read VO book
pray, text Phil and have supper
self-care
pray
bed
