Dreams.report.7.31.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

My day started out rough as I faced some of my demons I have been avoiding for a long time now. I made contact with a program that has scared the hell out of me because that addiction has played a huge roll in my life and almost defined who I am. I felt like a newbie walking into my first meeting ever, I didn't know what to say, how to tell my story I felt totally lost. I met a couple of good people who shared their ESH with me, despite being scared I know I made the right choice. There is only one more program I need to get into and my addiction circle will be complete, I will have addressed all my addictions. It feels good to take action. I spoke to a person who totally destroyed their life living in addiction. All they have left today is program and they are fully immersed in it pretty much 24 hours a day 7 days a week, more so than anyone else I have ever met, that was very profound to me. It is helping shift my thinking and make program the primary focus of my life as it should be.

Plan of Action

Prayer

Submit Meal Plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make at 2 out reach calls (shoot for 4)

Attend a meeting however I can

Read 2 pages in BB, 12/12

Read Daily Readers

Read 10 pages in my VO book

Practice my script 3 times, listen to lesson from last week

Check out 1 VO site (news station)

Put my papers into plastic sleeves and build the binders I need for daily use

Get out and walk for 10-15 minutes (around the block)

Pray before bed

Dr Feel Good.report.7.30.14

Good morning my name is Greg I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Over Eater, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to say today, I have been off my meeting plan I need to get them in, I am working on getting a schedule in place, I may not hit a meeting everyday but my goal is at least 3 a week.

I will also work to accomplish all the goals on my plan of action, but I will forgive myself if I do not get all of them accomplished.

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan
Pray
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Do 9:45 phone meeting if I can get home in time
Make 2 outreach calls
Make 2 outreach texts
Read Voice of Recovery and For Today
Read 2 pages in my BB
Read as much as I can in my VO book to catch up
Check out 1 VO site
Listen to my weekend lesson and practice my scripts
Get out and walk around the block

You shook me all night long.report.7.28.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was going to say I was abstinent yesterday however I did have a soda in the afternoon under the guise of low blood sugar. I was starting to drop it had been a while since I ate and lack of proper planning had my lunch long over due. I could have grabbed anything else to help with that but I “wanted” a coke and make the excuse to have it I am grateful my HP helped me see the dishonest in it and be truthful this morning because I wasn't going to be.

Phil had warned me to be on the lookout for such behavior after the birthday party self-will incident.

Not much else to say, my weekend was well. Had a great Skype meeting yesterday, I am grateful to those who showed up, great recovery shared.

Plan of Action

Submit meal plan

Pray

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Do 9:45 phone meeting if I can get home in time

Make 2 outreach calls

Make 2 outreach texts

Read Voice of Recovery and For Today

Read 2 pages in my BB

Read as much as I can in my VO book to catch up

Check out 1 VO site

Listen to my weekend lesson and practice my scripts

Get out and walk around the block

remember.when.report.7.27.14

Good morning

my name is Greg I am a compulsive over eater, I was not abstinent yesterday.  I was at a birthday party for my nephew, and when it came to the time where there is a certain food that is served at these types of functions I decided I would have some.

I was served and I only had that section, but the compulsive anticipation while I was watching it being passed out was like a lion waiting to pounce on a unsuspecting animal.

I did not pray about it, nor did I contact my sponsor to ask his input I made the choice myself

I did not feel bad yesterday, I was proud I only had once slice, but if I could have had more I would have.

Today I am ashamed that I just decided to take my will back and do what I wanted


Plan of Action

Pray
Submit Meal Plan
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Chair skype meeting
Read daily readers
read 2 pages in BB
read 2 pages in 12/12
read 2 pages in my VO book

Hysteria.report.7.24.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 phone meeting, be of service
Reach 5 pages in my VO book + 5 make up pages
Read 2 pages in the BB
Read 2 pages in the 12/12
Listen to voice lesson and practice scripts
Check out 1 VO page

don't know what you got till its gone.report.7.23.14

Good morning
my names is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Plan of Action

Submit Meal Plan
Call Phil
Pray before/after meals
Text Phil before/after meals
Make 2 outreach calls
Attend 9:45 phone meeting, be of service
Reach 5 pages in my VO book + 5 make up pages
Read 5 pages in the BB

come with me now.report.7.22.14

Good morning

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was abstinent yesterday

Not much to report, I am recovering nicely from my 4 wheeler incursion. I may have not mentioned it yesterday, Sunday I was out to my buddies house and wanted to take the wheeler for a spin. I went down a trail I had been on with my buddy only once, I was going up a small stream bed and did not realize where I was going, I hit a drop off probably at foot or so keep, it all happened so quickly that I didn't realize I was in trouble until my wheels dropped down and I went mostly up and over the handle bars.

Amazingly enough I only had a few bumps and bruises, I tell ya it was pretty startling to realize that your butt is coming up off the seat and you are going airborne. I feel pretty good, I am not in as much pain as I thought I would be, I can feel it a little bit in different spots but overall I feel good.

The last few days the message I have been receiving is pretty much a given but one I have not really been appreciating and that is being in the program everyday.

It doesn't take a rock scientist to realize that unless I am in program, in the work on a daily basis I, well won't be in the work/program everyday. It never ceases to amaze me how easy it is to forget this simple, fundamental lesson. I am grateful for the daily readers while remind me of the lessons I am most in need of when I need them

Plan of Action

Submit Meal Plan

Call Phil

Pray before/after meals

Text Phil before/after meals

Make 2 outreach calls

Attend 9:45 phone meeting, be of service

Reach 5 pages in my VO book + 5 make up pages

Read 5 pages in the BB

Read 5 pages in the 12/12

Listen to voice lesson and practice scripts

Check out 1 VO page