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Its day 1 of 2013. Will this be any different than yesterday? That depends on the actions I take today. I struggle with many health problems, I teeter on the edge of self-destruction, can I pull myself back? My life is broken, and I need to find the strength and courage to fix it. My physical, spiritual, and mental states are in shambles from years of addiction and self abuse. Food is my main drug of choice and it is killing me. My body is slowly breaking down due to the food abuse. If I have any hope of seeing tomorrow I need to start taking actions now. I welcome you to follow me on this journey as I struggle to find my way, to silence the demons within me, and find peace and serenity in my life. I can do this IF I am willing to put the work into it. I will share my trials and tribulations, success's and failures. Perhaps I can find a way to save my own life, and if it can help someone else with the same struggles, it would make it all the better This will be a chronicle of my journey to better health, better life, and happiness.

Monday, January 5, 2015

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Good morning

My name is Greg, I am a grateful recovering Compulsive Overeater, I was abstinent yesterday.

I woke up this morning and at the suggestion of a fellow member I got down on my hands and knees and asked for help. This was no small task as it caused lots of pain getting down and then back up, but it also felt good to finally be on my hands and knees asking for help, this is something I need to do more of.

I learned yesterday that I cannot “eye ball” it EVER. I need to portion out all my food, weight it, measure it, put everything into the portions that I need. Today I am no capable of preparing and serving myself food without these guidelines. So for today I commit to weighing and measuring my food.

I came up with a concept of a higher power that works for me over the weekend, well I am not even sure “I” did it, my HP must have done it because I have no idea how it happened.

Having been raised catholic I have all sorts of “issues” when it comes to religion/God/spirituality. I have managed to desperate religion and spirituality because for me those are two totally different things, although there can be religion in my spirituality and vice versa I do not “need” it to be close to my higher power.

The concept that appeals to me has to do with the holy trinity, father/son/holy ghost. My HP took that and gave me a parental figure, a sibling figure, and a spiritual adviser. The parental figure I am still trying to figure out exactly what that means to me, I have not had a lot of healthy experience with positive parental figures. The other 2 pieces of my concept I know who they are, they are two people who were important parts of my life when they were alive, and now they will help me on this journey as well.


Plan of Action:

Pray
Send meal plan to my sponsor
Send report to my sponsor
Self-Care
Mini-meeting
Daily Readings
Read in BB
Make 6 out reach calls
Make 4 outreach texts
Pray before and after my meals, text Phil before and after meals
Stop and check in with my Higher Power throughout the day
Read a chapter in my VO book
Practice my VO Scripts


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