Good morning
My name is Greg I am a grateful
recovering Compulsive Over Eater, I was not abstinent yesterday.
I am not really sure whats going on
these days, I have been out of sorts the last few weeks. Life seems
to be spinning more out of control each and every day that goes by .
I've been praying when I get up and before my meals, I've worked on
getting back into as many phone meetings as I can.
Still I am run down and not feeling
well, I truly am powerless over the food and I have just been giving
in the last few weeks. Prayer and turning it over to my HP seems
doesn’t seem to be working at all.
The ongoing suggestion is to turn it
over and let my HP handle things and I need a power greater than
myself. At this point I really don't know what that looks like or
how to do it. I start my day off with prayers from program and ask
for help to get through my day, at various times during my day I say
quick small prayers asking for help, it all seems useless because I
am still suffering.
I am starting to get resentful at being
told to let my HP handle things because he doesn't seem to be doing
anything. I am doing the best I can at the work, yet the compulsion
is still here, in full force and as deadly as ever
All I know how to do is keep coming
back like I have done for the last 4 years. Yesterday someone asked
me if I thought I would ever get recovery, and I said yes without
missing a beat if I just keep coming back I will recover, but as I
sit here this morning those words hold little value to me.
My blood sugars have been running
really high as of late which in turn makes me feel like crap. I have
been off my meal plan a little bit here and there, but nothing to
justify how high my sugars have been running. I'm going to email my
Dr for suggestion
Plan of Action
pray
self-care
snack
work
voice exercises
send meal plan
send report
call Phil
mini-meeting
breakfast
9:45 meeting
snack
make 2 out reach calls
lunch
make 2 out reach texts
snack
be of service
supper
self-care
bed
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