Good afternoon
I hope this finds you well. Yesterday was ok for me. Kind of an angry, resentful day. There is no particular reason for it. My food was sloppy, I just threw stuff together and ate, I didn't really care much about how much. I didn't massively over eat but I didn't show my normal care when prepping meals, I really just didn't care.
I got up today and took some actions to not repeat today. I started my day off with prayer and meditation like I have not done in quite a while, not to the extent I did this morning. I also worked on my vocal training first thing which is not something I have done for quite a while.
I did have a good impromptu meeting last night. A guy who was actually my teacher back in middle school is a standup comedian and he has been wanting to get some web series and radio shows off the ground. We got together last night and kicked some ideas around. We are going to work on putting together a pilot for a show and get in online on something like Kick start or mobcaster and see if we can get enough money to put a series together. I have no idea how it will end up but it’s going to be fun to try anyways. This has me really wanting to work on my program more and stick with my meal plan so that I can work on being healthier, especially if something comes from this I need the stamina, energy and determination to be able to do whatever work I have too. I feel pretty good and hopeful today. I am happy that I have a renewed drive at least for today to work my program, so I will do all I can to foster and help this drive flourish.
I texted my food sponsor before and after my breakfast and supper but lunch I totally forgot about. I am not 100% sure why, I think my phone was in another part of the house when I was eating and I wasn't going to go get it, I meant to text when I finished but totally forgot about it. That happens from time to time but not often. I’ll work to make sure I have my phone handy, I guess I could always email next time if I had too, I have in the past.
I don’t remember how many calories I ate yesterday, I will do a better job of tracking those today. I don’t know if you have a smart phone but there is an app called myfitnesspal (myfitnesspal.com)
I can track my food, my exercise and all sorts of things on there. I have people who can friend me through there, if you can join please do and you can see my calories daily as long as I enter them. If not I will work on using that to track them so I can report in to you. My goals for today
pray
submit meal plan (done)
pray before my meals and after to give thanks
pray
text my food sponsor before my meals and after
be of service where I can
pray
do something for my recovery every hour when my phone alarm goes off
About Me
- Greg
- Its day 1 of 2013. Will this be any different than yesterday? That depends on the actions I take today. I struggle with many health problems, I teeter on the edge of self-destruction, can I pull myself back? My life is broken, and I need to find the strength and courage to fix it. My physical, spiritual, and mental states are in shambles from years of addiction and self abuse. Food is my main drug of choice and it is killing me. My body is slowly breaking down due to the food abuse. If I have any hope of seeing tomorrow I need to start taking actions now. I welcome you to follow me on this journey as I struggle to find my way, to silence the demons within me, and find peace and serenity in my life. I can do this IF I am willing to put the work into it. I will share my trials and tribulations, success's and failures. Perhaps I can find a way to save my own life, and if it can help someone else with the same struggles, it would make it all the better This will be a chronicle of my journey to better health, better life, and happiness.
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