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Its day 1 of 2013. Will this be any different than yesterday? That depends on the actions I take today. I struggle with many health problems, I teeter on the edge of self-destruction, can I pull myself back? My life is broken, and I need to find the strength and courage to fix it. My physical, spiritual, and mental states are in shambles from years of addiction and self abuse. Food is my main drug of choice and it is killing me. My body is slowly breaking down due to the food abuse. If I have any hope of seeing tomorrow I need to start taking actions now. I welcome you to follow me on this journey as I struggle to find my way, to silence the demons within me, and find peace and serenity in my life. I can do this IF I am willing to put the work into it. I will share my trials and tribulations, success's and failures. Perhaps I can find a way to save my own life, and if it can help someone else with the same struggles, it would make it all the better This will be a chronicle of my journey to better health, better life, and happiness.

Saturday, January 25, 2014

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Good afternoon

My name is Greg I am a grateful recovering COE, I was not abstinent yesterday

I slipped up and had a “treat”.  There was no reason why aside from I wanted it and I had it, I was run down and exhausted yesterday, not that I makes it acceptable; but when I am like that my defenses are at their lowest.
The gravity of moms health issues are really starting to weight on me, as is what is coming over the next year or so.  It was only 3 years ago that I helped and cared for my best friend as he battled and ultimately died from cancer.  I was of service and took him everywhere he needed to go, whatever appointments he had we always went together.  They were long trips that taxed me but still I did what I had to do.  I now know why I am still here living with mom and in my hometown, it’s because I need to be. There were a few opportunities for me to perhaps move elsewhere but they just did not feel right at the time and now I know why.  My place is here to help her through this, no one else in the family is in the position to do what must be done, at least now I know my purpose and that feels good.

Plan of action

Pray (did it)
Submit meal plan (done)
Stick to meal plan as written report any changes
Pray before and after meals
Text Phil before and after meals
Make my daily call to phil (done)
Call other people
Read some literature
Mediate (done)

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